Been having trouble writing lately.
I'm working on a project that I hope will turn into a web-based series of free short stories from The Fourth Dimension universe. Much has happened to Arus since we last saw him, and when Volume IV rolls around, a number of years will have passed. So I wanted to give readers a chance to learn a bit about what he's thus far encountered during his time as a soldier for the Aeden Alliance.
The problem I'm facing is that I am getting far too picky with my sentences. I'm just agonizing over every single word. With each sentence I write, I stare and reread it over and over, picking out useless words, tangled phrases, and repetitive language. As a result, I'll sit at the computer for an hour and type three sentences.
I'm no expert on the English language. For example, I don't know if "English" in that last sentence is supposed to be capitalized or not. If you asked me to identify a dangling participle or to conjugate a verb, I'd have no clue what you're talking about. I didn't major in English or Journalism in college, and I wasn't a straight-A student in grade school. So I don't have any formal training to tell me what is right and what is wrong when writing a book. I just write what feels right.
These days, twenty minutes at my computer goes something like this: Write a sentence, delete it, write half of a new one, delete that, write another one, reword it, reword it again, reword one more time, delete it, check facebook, delete the whole paragraph, get a soda, and start again.
There was a time when I just sat down, wrote the story, and then went
over it again later to edit in/out words, sentences, grammar, or
punctuation as necessary. I need to get back to that, because lately I've been wrestling with OCD and the nagging voice in the back of my head that's whispering, "You know you're going to change that sentence. Why move on to the next scene when you know you're going to change this one? Better to fix it now so you won't have to come back." I spend too much time rewriting and rewriting what I rewrote (and, admittedly, checking websites because my brain has the attention span of ... well, something with a really short attention span).
I guess the point I'm trying make is: New content is on the way, but I ask for your patience and understanding while I wrestle the voices in my head.